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Fight Club Re-Version. [Mar. 3rd, 2004|02:25 am]
Sauce1977
[In the Moment |contemplativecontemplative]
[Special Music |Blue Öyster Cult - Godzilla]

I was Jack's copy machine.

For over a year, I toiled at a cubicle in the hell's kitchen of Detroit's suburbs.

With my Stain-defender Wrinkle-free dress shirts and matching pants, I answered calls of the drunk and disorderly, cheerfully providing directions to the nearest liquor store.

Then, one night I read Adventures in the Screen Trade, and Goldman's words of duffing it in the early years before success hit me.

I had not failed in my attempts to write.

The very next evening, I smoked outside the building of ignorance when the director asked me to put out my cigarette.

I said no.

At one point, she bellowed, "Do you know who I am?"

She steamed, huffed, followed me into the building, argued with me, howled, threatened, and caused a bigger scene. She did so in vain . . .

I wasn't doing anything wrong.

It occurred to me, at that trembling moment, staring at the hose-beast of a leader of our building, who was upset and defending her ego by attacking mine, standing there before me, in her anti-smoking anger and pride, that she should have been lucky I didn't maim her with comments about workplace harassment and legal action.

She's lucky that another alternative, bashing her face in with a chair, wasn't utilized. Unlike her, I had a conscience, and someone so useless wasn't worth the energy spent giving her a quality beating.

I don't like the taste of bitchy power-trip management-types. They're too stringy, and I get diarrhea from the ingredients.

The final alternative, it seemed the higher path. I twiddled my thumbs for an extra week, and then I quit working there.

Working at Erectile Dysfunction Syndrome proved worse for my health than a daily pack of cigarettes.

When one has had enough of the static nonsense, the moment becomes clear, and the results lead to exhilaration, no matter of the path chosen.
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[User Picture]From: sauce1977
2004-03-03 02:26 am (UTC)
Credits be due to Denny's on Sunset for the fattening cattle meat in mini-burger form.

Red meat makes for red energy.

REEEEDDD!!
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From: zboson
2004-03-03 05:43 am (UTC)
Oh, I totally dig on what you're saying, man. Totally. Anyway, the drudgery gives you perspective and bitterness, two things you need to be a great writer, imnsfho. Well, maybe not the bitterness, though that gives your words "edge". You do need the perspective, though. You need to suffer! You need to get your mind bent!

When one has had enough of the static nonsense, the moment becomes clear, and the results lead to exhilaration, no matter of the path chosen.

That sounds like something the Buddha would say, sort of. If he were you, anyway.
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[User Picture]From: sauce1977
2004-03-03 06:16 am (UTC)
Yeah, there wasn't bitterness this time that I recalled the story.

So that's a good thing for all of the bite but none of the seeming negativity behind it.

I like to think of life as worth living. Otherwise, I'd be at a loss to explain myself.
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[User Picture]From: fruitpunch76
2004-03-03 10:55 am (UTC)

Don't forget......

There were some GOOD things about your time at hell

Wink wink :op
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[User Picture]From: sauce1977
2004-03-04 04:19 am (UTC)

Re: Don't forget......

Yessss!

I don't regret working there.

Certainly, I am thankful for you.
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[User Picture]From: fruitpunch76
2004-03-08 09:53 am (UTC)

Re: Don't forget......

You need to read this entire entry again to help you with what you are going through right now. This is truth, you said you are not bitter about this, and yeah.

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[User Picture]From: freys
2004-03-03 01:46 pm (UTC)
I don't like the taste of bitchy power-trip management-types. They're too stringy, and I get diarrhea from the ingredients. - haha!

I love it when you post stories like this. Most of them seem to circulate around smoking though. :P
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[User Picture]From: sauce1977
2004-03-04 04:25 am (UTC)
The shock of being black-listed because of one's habits, be it homosexuality, being a particular race, or something as minor as being a smoker . . . it really makes one feel quite alienated.

Before that incident, I had great standing in the company. They valued me as one of the quality employees. I had some of the highest monthly evaluations, and my record was pretty spotless, especially by their stringent, overly-picky standards.

After the incident, I received a written document, stating that any further violations would result in my termination.

Basically, what it was . . . a legal document giving them leeway to let me go whenever they felt.

Those documents took months to wipe clean off the company's records.

So, I did what any self-respecting individual would do . . . I left under the cover of night.
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