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gjenkins05 , your current thoughts are parallel to mine exactly at this time in 1999, five years ago.
I was 22.
Again, thank you for showing me my roots.
The Following Is a Re-Broadcast of an Original Conversation.
Brian - Gjenkins05 wrote on Feb 11, 2004:
Chantal Kreviazuk - "What If It All Means Something"
You know, I think way too damn much. It is one of my character flaws. I tend to overanalyze things, but eh.
I have two or three things to talk about tonight, but I forgot them, or don't know how to articulate them. So I guess I'll just go for this and see what comes out.
Point 1: It is really weird how we get older as people, our bodies age, we mature, but it seems like in your mind (or at least this applies to me), we still all feel like kids. I mean I am almost 22 and still have the same interests I did when I was 14. Wrestling, video games, the internet, and sleeping. Mentally I've matured and as a man I have matured, but it seems like at heart I am still a kid. It is really weird. And I've talked to adults who feel the same way. No matter how old you get, it seems like in your mind you still feel really young. It kind of sucks.
Point 2: I always forget everything I want to write in my journal by the time I get to post. While I am at work I always get these ideas, or when I am in class, but by the time I get home I am all "Shit, what was that now?" ... it kind of sucks, too, because these are things I actually would like to discuss and share.
Point 3: We were talking about babies and people getting pregnant at work tonight, and just because I am lazy I don't feel like going into the whole hypothetical story, but it really pisses me off when people (especially dudes) don't want to man up to the shit they do. If you have the balls to pull out your wang and get it on, then you need to have the balls to handle your business if something happens. Don't take some cheap ass way out. Like my guy Vince said, "That man is a coward if he would want to do that." ... I can't say I disagree with him.
Point 4: For some reason I am still scared about my guitar class. I KNOW I won't be good right away, but I just still worry... like I said, I think and worry too damn much.
Right now I just kind of feel crappy/sad/confused anyhow. I don't even know why. Well, I do, but eh. It is just one of those things. I'd elaborate more, but as I said before: B is lazy.
In keeping with this theme of laziness, and the fact that we didn't get out of work until 10:25 tonight so I am already a half hour behind I think I will take my over-thinking, semi-sad, crabby ass to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will bring clear thinking and the benefits that come with it.
Chris Sauce1977rm wrote:
Oh my, this sounds like me at 21!
I'm 27 now, and I'm still the same person.
This is a good thing however. Most people my age wouldn't know what to do with a Madden 2004 game.
Point 4 struck me.
You actually inspired me to find my favorite English professor online. I have to look into his stuff more, and I have you to thank!
You know, about 6 years ago, I was feeling Point 4 about writing fiction.
I think the best thing for me was to answer my nagging questions in regards to my true love.
So over these last few years, I did . . . I hopped through some private sector jobs, and I realized I was miserable with jobs like OnStar.
If I hadn't stuck my nose in a few years of straight-up private sector, then I wouldn't have had such a clear vision on my love of art.
What have I done? Well, I keep this LJ up, so that's a good thing. Before this, I was worrying about whether I'd be any good at writing.
Sometimes we have to find encouragement, and so this is my encouragement to you.
If I hadn't had a kind UDM professor by the name of Culik . . . I dunno if I'd have realised my own personal worth in the realm of my love.
For you . . . I'd draw inspiration from bands like Nirvana. You may or may not like them, but I really do. The music is as simple as you can get in terms of structure and chord-variety. Power-chords do not a mega-band make, or do they?
Cobain was about as non-technical in terms of sheet music or anything above intro-guitar teachings. Yet, he went out on his own and interjected himself into the work.
Nirvana's about as dead of a band as there is, in comparison to still-living bands without key members like The Grateful Dead. Grohl does his thing with Foo Fighters, but in terms of Nirvana, there is nothing new, nor will there probably be for some time.
Yet, as dead as Nirvana is, they still routinely play their hits on the radio, and the music still sells regularly.
Cobain interjected himself into his work.
You have something to say musically, and no matter what teachings you receive, no matter where you go, no matter what stuff you incorporate into your musical design, it's still you behind it all.
It isn't anything without you.
And, if you can't get far beyond what I did, which was power-chords, and if you really love it, if you're pulling it out every day, and even if you only can wheedle one-string notes, if you're crooning, howling, yelping or screeching along to the notes, and if you really enjoy it that much, then remember that you can be of the level of in-tune screaming with basic notes and have a successful career from it.
And, even if you don't want a huge career in music, if you love it, and I think you do, then you'll be happy with it at any level you fall in terms of technical talent.
So, I guess I should say, in order to get over your worries of the class, fuck the grade.
Seriously. All it is in the long run is how well you measured up to the class's level of technical ability. Your love is separate from that, and if your hopes are to be the next Van Halen virtuoso, then maybe a failing grade in the technical ability might give pause, but if you love it, if you really enjoy picking that guitar up and striking the strings, then long after that class, it'll still be there for you, daily, always, forever.